20 July 2012

someone that I miss

Assalamualaikum!

nampak tajuk di atas? ya, Isha tengah rindu someone ni. Nope, kali ni Isha bukan nak cerita yang Isha rindu Faiez. Today I wanna story-morry about someone that has left me here alone without any word. Benda ni jadi lama dulu. At first, memang lha ade rase bengang jauh di dalam lubuk hati di sudut yang paling dalam bile Isha tahu yang dye nak pergi. Orang yang kite sayang-sayang selama ni tetiba pergi macam tu je, x bagitahu kite. Isha tahu pun lepas Isha dok stalk-2 blog dye. Tapi lama-kelamaan, Isha dapat terima yang dye sekarang dah jauh dari Isha sekarang and I have to find someone new to replace her. but don't worry, you always there in my heart :')

2010
Setiap persahabatan pasti ada permulaan dan persahabatan kitorang bermule as a classmate. Ya, she's my classmate. Selepas dah 6 tahun sekolah, baru lha jumpe minah sorang ni. She's a beautiful girl inside and outside. Tapi takkan lha baru je jadi classmate, terus upgrade jadi bestfriend. Mesti ada kisah disebaliknye ye tak? Time darjah 6 ni, Isha dapat tahu yang dye ni tengah couple with a hot guy in school. so, kalau dah couple pun dengan budak hot sekolah, mesti berita akan tersebar satu sekolah dan sampai ke telinga Isha. Isha ni memang jenis budak yang suke mengena-ngenakan orang, perli-memerli dan perkara-perkara yang sewaktu dengannye :) Disebabkan dye ni pretty and clever, Isha macam segan sikit nak bertegur dengan dye ni. Tetiba ditambahkan perisanya lagi dengan couple with budak hot, lagilah.... And one day, Isha x tahu lha kenapa Isha macam berani sikit haritu untuk tego dye. Tapi, Isha mulekan dengan memerli dye about she and her boyfriend lha of course. The conclusion is, our friendship start with PERLIAN. Mule daripada situ lha kitorang jadi rapat and kalau boleh asyik nak berdua je. Time cuti hujung tahun, I've got her phone number and we start texting. Kitorang mule story about our life, our problem and everything about us, we share it together. *terbayang-bayang masa lampau* Since that, on-the-spot I've listed her as my bestfriend in my heart :') Hanye dengan perkenalan selama beberapa bulan, you're my bestfriend now. So easy right?

2011
Kite same-same naik sekolah menengah. Dan sejarah berulang kembali, we're classmate again! But maybe jodoh x rapat sangat, Isha kene tukar kelas :'( Nampak x? Jodoh kami semakin menjauh pergi. Tapi kitorang still berkawan rapat, malah lebih rapat lagi. Kitorang selalu rehat sesama, makan makanan yang sama, happy sesama, solat sesama and everything we do it together. But we don't cry together sebab dye je yang banyak crying, Isha selalu lha kene pujuk dye. Yes, I must be strong for her. Alangkah indahnya dunia time tu. Tapi langit tidak selalu cerah, mendung pasti datang menjenguk. Dye dapat tawaran untuk masuk ke sekolah lain and dye terima tawaran tu. Hari terakhir dye kat sekolah, guess what? I'm crying! For the first time in my life, I'm showing the weak side of me at her. When she left, I've tried my best to hide my sadness infront of the others but I can't. I need her by my side. 4 hari selepas itu, Farina (her classmate) tell me that someone wanna meet me in her class. I just follow her with so many question in my head sebab x pernah pun budak kelas dye pernah panggil Isha. Bile sampai je kat kelas tu, memang terkejut gile abah lha kan. That girl was sitting on a chair lepak-ing with her classmate. Isha pun join sekali lepak. Nampaknya Allah masih beri peluang untuk jodoh kitorang dan Allah Maha Mengetahui yang Isha masih belum bersedia untuk tinggalkan dye :')

2 Januari 2012
I read her blog. Isha dapat tahu yang dye nak pindah sekolah AGAIN. She said she could not tell me that news and she just hoping that I read her blog. She make me cried AGAIN and hati Isha memang remuk habis macam baru lepas kene gilis dengan treler *menunjukkan memang betul-betul hancur* sebab sampai hati dye x bagitahu Isha. Tapi disebabkan ini kali kedua Isha alaminya, Isha berjaya laluinya dengan tabah.

And now, Isha dapat menerima kenyataan yang dye dah jauh dari Isha. Isha dah lame x jumpe dye. Texting pun kadang-kadang sebab dye duduk kat hostel. Isha pun dah jumpe dua orang yang dapat kembalikan Isha macam dulu lagi. See that? Isha perlukan DUA orang untuk menggantikan dye SEORANG. Tapi keadaan x macam dulu, sebab setiap orang ada keunikan tersendiri. I can't lie myself with saying "I can live without her" because I can't live without her. I need a long time to stand up and move on.
The person that I miss is my bestfriend, Nur Izzah Fahira binti Hazidi. Yes Izah, I miss you. I really miss you right now. I hope you're here, infront of me, smile at me and saying that you miss me too. I don't know why but this feeling just come all of a sudden, make me remember our moment together and making me throw some tears for you for the third time!
Remember Izah, you're the one that make me cry and make me smile at the same time. You're the one that teach me the meaning of regret, sadness, happiness, love and life. Walau kita berjauhan, kite tetap berkawan lagi kan Izah? No one can replace you in my heart :)

Jangan senang-senang buang suatu persabatan kerana bukan mudah untuk membinanya 

Hanya tinggal kenangan

Yang sedang merindui, 
Farisha       

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